My life has been hell everything about me everything around me is falling apart. This year i've lost a best friend to suicide Aleshia K Fisher i don't understand it she was ALWAYS sooooo happy. I love to other friends to suicide Ashlee and Josh V.My life has been hell everything about me everything around me is falling apart. This year i've lost a best friend to suicide Aleshia K Fisher i don't understand it she was ALWAYS sooooo happy. I love to other friends to suicide Ashlee and Josh V. I lost a man I was once in love with Josh H. but the one that hurt the most was Travis see travis and i were dating for two years before he commited suicide we were the perfect couple always together never fought we had our first fight summer of 2009 the day after he commited suicide i can't help but feel like it's my fault i killed him and he's never coming back. I lost my nana grandma dog uncle. I've gone through an addiction i cant go 28 hours without a drink i lost my baby girl while i was pregnant , i was abused, i was rape , my father dosnt care about me and probably never will. I dont want to leave waking up in the morning is the worst feeling ever why can't i just die... i'm soooo scared.

Submitted by: DyingInside... 

A note from mindyourmind:
Any one of the issues described in this post would be extremely difficult, challenging and overwhelming for anyone to go through. The combination of multiple traumatic events, losses and grief would be that much more painful to cope with, especially without help. We hope that mindyourmind can help, but strongly recommend also obtaining help from a professional. With treatment, life can start to get better. You deserve to be well. Take good care.

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