I am the most miserable bitch i know. I have anger problems that i can't even deal with. I freak out, and bitch at my friends just for fucking fun. It's like i cannot control it. it almost scares me to think of the problems i'm causing other people. I put down my friends because i'll admit i'm bored with my own life. Those bitches out there get everything. I get shit.
My parents are divorced, i live with my Dad, and step mother and step sister. There's a point i get to everyday that makes me question my sanity. I don't know what to do. The only thing i do know is that i'm causing other people pain that i'd never wish to happen to me. I'm sitting up this late writing about this because i just bitched at one of the best friends i've had in a while although she is never reliable. I also constantly put myself down and i probably put others down because i feel so bad about myself. I seriously just need a fix or someone to talk to me and tell me that it will be okay and that there is a way to fix me. I've almost lost a parent to a heart attack, and i still haven't figured out how to deal with it. I love to pick fights, and i'm a grammar and spelling freak. I have to be in control of everything around me and i just can't be the one to feel down. I don't even feel bad sometimes about the things i say to people. I just need to get high, or drunk, something to help me forget about the bad things i've done. i just want to start over. i've apologized to one of the people i did this to and she forgave me, but i just cant seem to stop. i push people away, just like my mother, and i don't regret saying that because it is the complete truth. Someone please just read this and help me figure this out. email me or reply to this or whatever how this shit works. *email has been removed by mindyourmind for safety purposes*
- by Emily, age 15
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