don’t shake

You have a pop bottle and you shake it and it explodes. So much fun to watch, but what happens to the rest of the pop. It is yucky, not fuzzy and terrible.
Kind of how I feel sometimes.
When you are a wife you are just supposed to be quiet, listen, set the best example, never be angry. Always be less than anything.
Sometimes I see myself in the room but I am not really there. Everyone is laughing but me.
Money between a man and women should be shared. Equal responsibility.
In marriage there is no boss in love there is no boss.
I feel like a shape shifter from startrek never knowing what shape i will be next.
I try to hold in everytime i feel like i want to say stop telling me what to do. stop not letting me make decisions or have a say. Every time I hold a feeling in it fills a little more of the bottle up. Than when the caps blows off I just get reprimanded for getting my feelings out.
So unfair easier to walk in silence.
I have so many empty bottles that are now full.
I could walk a million laps and still have bottles to fill.
I love rainy days storms…Thunder lighting. Because Mother Nature cries for me than so I can have a break.
I do smile and laugh sometimes just sucks cause sometimes I am not allowed.
I need caps that are super glued on and indestructable.