My name is Jill. I used to be a primary teacher; first teaching Kindergarten, then a class of children with learning disabilities, then Grade 2 and Grade 3 - all the magical years. I was always drawn to the children who struggled, constantly problem solving to find another way to teach them so they wouldn't feel like the odd person out. I wanted them to get that 'aha' feeling that made things all of a sudden fall together and make sense.
I had grown up always being told I could do better if I tried harder, and never feeling like I was good enough. When I couldn't seem to help all of the children in my class, it caused me to crash with burnout twice in my career. Anxiety and depression hit me hard because I felt like I wasn't doing a good enough job for the kids. In 2003, I was finally diagnosed with obsessive compulsive disorder and went through trials of four different medications over two years until we finally found one that worked for a while. More trials with two or three more medications and combos have finally found me feeling good about myself and relatively happy. I have been working on my mental health since my first burnout in 1992 (over 26 years) - participating in individual and group therapy, working through workbooks and reading lots. I've been to psychiatrists, psychologists, and a specialized kinesiologist for help and continue with my psychiatrist and kinesiologist to this day but fortunately, a little less frequently. In 2013, I discovered Zentangle.