Being a mouse

All through my life I have been a talkative person, it came naturally. I had a big family and a lot of people around me who were ALWAYS talking, but when certain subjects come up I become a mouse. When I was six years old I was (the R worded) and it prevented me from any relationships which caused a lot of bullying and harassment. At 14 I was sexually abused and it scared me more but I wouldn't dare tell anyone why I was so distraught about being in relationships and intercourse. The only way I could prevent myself from telling anyone (even my parents) was to be a mouse. Stop talking.