diagnosis

Fuck You All

Fall back and leave me alone! I hate you all!

Fuck the doctors for certifying me when you don’t know who the
fuck I am!
Fuck staff for never having a straight answer and injecting me with poison!

Fuck the hospital for detaining me!
Fuck security and the nurses for putting me into seclusion and restraining me to a bed!
Fuck the police for tackling me and throwing me to the ground!
Fuck the Alberta Mental Health Act for shitting on my rights!

My story-turned-career path

I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder at age 22 but I'm certain I suffered from depression long before that. I experienced thoughts of suicide many times during my youth. By age 27, I had attempted suicide twice. One of the attempts landed me in a mental health unit in the hospital. Since I was just about to complete nursing school, I found the whole experience inspiring and interesting, from a nursing standpoint. Eight months later, I found myself working on that very unit, as well as two other mental health units, as a nurse.

My Dual Diagnosis

I like learning about mental health, but very rarely see my situation represented.  Not only was I diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) in 2008 (which I don't think is very well represented when we talk about mental health), but I also have Cerebral Palsy, a physical disability.  Although there are quite a few resources for people with disabilities, there are almost no resources for people with disabilities and mental health issues. 

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