Part III: Literally and Figuratively Living Under a Cloud
Part II: “I’m so OCD”
Most of you are probably familiar with the OCD stereotypes; neat freak, clean freak, an inevitable discomfort felt in the presence of a crooked picture or a messy room. While these characteristics resonate with many individuals who are diagnosed with OCD (and most definitely for myself), I can tell you that the disorder is much more complex and debilitating than what the stereotypes surrounding it insinuate.
Part I: Stomach Pains & Patterned Pant Suits
This week, a great new interview with Amanda Seyfried came out. In it, she talks about her eyes, her dog… and her mental illness. Amanda talks about how she’s struggled with OCD since she was a teen, and takes a medication for it.
You’re the opposite of a guardian angel.
You are the reverse of rose-coloured glasses or an encouraging whisper or a smile from a friend.
You’re the mud on my shoulders that keeps my eyes to the ground watching for cracks.
You make me hide. You make me cry.
You make me have hate in my heart.
For you. For others. For myself.
You make me lose myself down a rabbit hole of “you can’t”,
“you hate” and “of course you would”.
You make me count.
You make me hold my breath.
You make me clench my fists.
You make my skin burn.
"I know that only when I recognize my own role in a situation, do I actually have the power to change that situation."