Today, performer Selena Gomez announced she will be cancelling the remainder of her world tour, taking time off to deal with depression, anxiety, and panic attacks. She described the issues she was tackling as stemming from her lupus.
When I sit alone and cry
It feels like a hundred years pass by
Time is standing still
It always gives me a chill
A single shiver down my spine
Makes me feel frozen inside
The coolness I feel in my gut
Gives me intense pain like I'm being cut
I'd love to say I'm getting better
But I don't believe it myself
Julie Andrews sung the lyrics, “Let’s start at the very beginning, it’s a very good place to start…” but, for the purposes of this abridged autobiography, it isn’t a good place to start. I’ll start 34 years into my life, then I’ll jump to now and then I’ll go back to 1966.
7 February 2001:
Only anxious people understand what it’s like to feel the angst when anxiety attacks. Being told to “calm down” is annoying. Meeting people is not fun. A delay in someone accepting your Facebook friendship means they don’t like you.
This is a long story about my long struggle with depression, social anxiety, generalized anxiety and panic diroders. If you want to skip to my advice scroll down to the bottom. It is not easy writing about something so personal, not to mention taboo in our society. But, having come out the other end of depression 4, yes 4 times, I feel it is my duty to now help other people do the same.
Recently, I had the pleasure of interviewing a few of the guys from the band, Down with Webster. They're from Toronto and have been together since 1998!
It is so refreshing to know that there is somebody out there who knows exactly how you're feeling. I used to get this awful sensation that I am alone, strange, and no one has ever dealt with what I have because it is so bizarre. I failed to realize, that, hey, I'm not that special. There are tons of people who deal with the same issues. It all started when I first entered high school. I would have panic attacks on my way to school, needing to pull the car over because I was throwing up. I missed many days of school, and when I would get home I would still be sick.